‘With all my love’ Prompt

The daily prompt suggested in my Omegaverse group today was ‘With all my love’. Welp, now that I’m done bawling, here’s my contribution.

Maggie glanced up from her desk as the reflection of car lights shone through the front windows of the house. She held her breath anxiously, listening for indications that would stop outside. As the noise from the vehicle faded down the street, she blew out a shaky breath and turned her attention back to the paper before her.

Ten minutes later she put down her pen, wiping tears from her eyes as she reached for the picture frame nearby.  She touched the face of the man in the photo lovingly for a moment before she pressed it to her chest and stood up.

She was trembling when she sat down on the bed and deposited the picture of her husband in her lap, reaching unsteadily for the bottle of pills on the bedside table. She couldn’t stop crying, sobbing so uncontrollably now that the task of swallowing all eighty-five of the white tablets was made even more difficult. The wine she’d brought to wash them down couldn’t banish the awful lump in her throat or drown her regret.

Once the bottle was empty, she sat it on the night stand and laid down on his side of the mattress. She curled up on her side, still clutching his photo even as she pressed his pillow to her nose and inhaled his scent. Knowing what he’d find when he came home, she knew she didn’t deserve the comfort, but she couldn’t help being grateful all the same.

Eventually her breathing became sluggish, her tears slowing as the medication took effect and a blessed sense of numbness stole over her. She was scared when the end drew near but tried bravely to face it. It was the only way to save him, after all. He deserved more than a letter. But that’s all she could give. She’d poured her heart onto that piece of paper, and she only hoped that someday he could understand.

***

Dear Michael,

Enforcement officers sniffed me out in the market today. I’ve been so careful. I take my medicine religiously. I don’t know how this happened. They forced me to show them my id. When they saw that I was omega, they told me that I should have turned myself in weeks ago when the new laws went into effect. I tried to pretend I didn’t know what they were talking about, but I guess they saw through me.

They tried to make me leave the market with them, but I caused a scene and cried. So many people were watching, they let me go. I thought. After I got home they showed up at the door. They said they would be back tonight with an omega seizure warrant, and they’d take me away. I’ve never been so scared in all my life.

Michael, I’m sorry for what you’ll find when you come home. It was the only way I could be sure you’d be safe. They’ve been watching the house. I’m sure they’ll check our phone records. They will see I didn’t call you. They won’t be able to blame you.

I know it’s hard to understand, but baby, I hope you’ll try. Before I met you, my life was nothing but one miserable day after another, full of heartache and loneliness. You were my sunshine. You gave me hope, you made me feel loved. You gave me a reason to live. I am so, so grateful to have had you for as long as I did. I had hoped it could last, but alphas have always made it clear. Omegas can’t belong to betas.

But you’re the only one I’ve ever belonged to. You are my heart, and my soul, and I can’t live without you. That’s why I have to do this. I can’t live without you, and I know what would happen if we tried to run. Even if we managed it for a while, they’d find us eventually, and I know what they’d do to you. I couldn’t take that chance.

I’m so sorry Michael. I hope someday you can forgive me.  Someday, I’d like to think that you could change another girl’s life the way you changed mine. That you will show her how it feels to be loved by a good man, and that you would let her make you happy again. Don’t hide forever, sunshine. The world needs your warmth and light.

I know we’ll meet again. Until that time comes, I’ll be waiting for you.

With all my love,

Maggie

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